Twinsoul - Do you still remember dear?
In 1998 I was living in Georgia, USA with my husband & two children. We had been married for two years, but had been together off & on for 13 years, since highschool. Our son at this time was 9 & our daughter was 7.
Throughout our 13 years together I always felt empty. I couldn't understand what was wrong with me. Why couldn't I truly love this man? I went thru the depressionn stage & had bouts of anxiety.
The last year of our marriage, I was more or less a couch potatoe. I had no energy, no desire to do anything. I refused to share the bed with my husband. Yet, this wasn't depression. Which was even more confusing! My husband asked what was wrong with me. He noticed that it was not depression either. The only thing I could tell him was that I felt SO empty inside. So lonely. I told him my soul was searching for something. Yet, for what I had no earthly idea!
This feeling continued for about another month. Then I decided, "This is enough!" I still had no idea what was wrong with me. The doctors had no idea either. So, one morning I got up off the couch & told myself, "No more." If this was what life was suppose to be like, then so be it. I was going to live each day as best as I could. Yet, deep down I felt like Someone was looking for me & that I needed to find this person.
\r\n\r\n"Every night from the age of 11 till a few years ago, I would have these dreams. Very different dreams, each of them. I could control them, to an extent. \r\n\r\nThe one thing that never changed in these dreams was the face of a girl. (Later a woman, but the same face.) She grew up with me. (Or did I grow up with her.) She became a part of me. I got so that I could see her face while I was awake. \r\n\r\nThen, suddenly, the dreams stopped. Is she dead? Does she not love me anymore? Or am I to meet her in the flesh at last? I pray for the last, though I\'m begining to lose my faith. Her face is fadeing in my mind. I can\'t remember the details much anymore. \r\n\r\nAre you out there? \r\n\r\n\r\nDo you believe in Soul Mates? Can this person, who\'s name I never discovered, be my soul mate? Are we ever destined to meet?" \r\n\r\nThis was interesting to me. I have never heard of anyone doing this. Can someone actually dream of a person they have never met? Night after night?! How bizarre! Yet, so very interesting. I wanted to know more about this kind of dreaming. So, I e-mailed this guy. Keep in mind, this was the first time I have ever responded to a message on a board. I didn\'t even post my reply to the board, just responded directly to his e-mail address. \r\n\r\nHe wrote back answering all my questions. I can\'t remember what my questions were but I know I became more intriqued. He gave me his ICQ # so we could chat. \r\n\r\n",1]
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That night was Dec. 23, 1998. I stayed up late that night browsing the internet. Looking at different message boards on ICQ. Just reading, having no intentions of replying to any of them. One link led to another, etc. Until I saw one that caught my interest. The title was "Soul Mates in Your Dreams". It was by a guy named David Moss. It read:
"Every night from the age of 11 till a few years ago, I would have these dreams. Very different dreams, each of them. I could control them, to an extent.
The one thing that never changed in these dreams was the face of a girl. (Later a woman, but the same face.) She grew up with me. (Or did I grow up with her.) She became a part of me. I got so that I could see her face while I was awake.
Then, suddenly, the dreams stopped. Is she dead? Does she not love me anymore? Or am I to meet her in the flesh at last? I pray for the last, though I'm begining to lose my faith. Her face is fadeing in my mind. I can't remember the details much anymore.
Are you out there?
Do you believe in Soul Mates? Can this person, who's name I never discovered, be my soul mate? Are we ever destined to meet?"
This was interesting to me. I have never heard of anyone doing this. Can someone actually dream of a person they have never met? Night after night?! How bizarre! Yet, so very interesting. I wanted to know more about this kind of dreaming. So, I e-mailed this guy. Keep in mind, this was the first time I have ever responded to a message on a board. I didn't even post my reply to the board, just responded directly to his e-mail address.
He wrote back answering all my questions. I can't remember what my questions were but I know I became more intriqued. He gave me his ICQ # so we could chat.
\r\n\r\nSo, Dave & I started chatting on ICQ. Even though the girl in his dreams had the same exact physical traits as me, I thought it was only a coincidence. \r\n\r\nWe started to talk about the dreams. I asked him what kind of dreams he had with the girl in them. He said she was always being chased by these half human troll creatures. Oh Shit! Another coincidence! I use to have these horrible nightmares of those same mean ugly trolls when I was a kid! Just another coincidence I told myself. Every kid has dreams of monsters. \r\n\r\nHe told me these trolls were always chasing me & he was always fighting them to keep them away from me. In my dreams, yes, these monster trolls were always chasing me. Then the next thing I knew they would vanish! I never saw anyone else in my dreams. I could never figure out why they vanished. \r\n\r\nI remember him telling me that he was always trying to catch up with me. But, there were always obstacles he had to overcome in the dreams. Like a river with no way to cross. Big boulders in the path that he couldn\'t move, etc. \r\n\r\nThen he told me something that changed my mind about all of this being just coincidence. He said that sometimes he would chase me through a field of flowers. \r\n\r\nA field of flowers?! That was my "SPECIAL" place! The place you go in your mind when you close your eyes to get away from everyday things. No one knew about this place. No one! This was my place since I was a very little girl. I never told a soul about it. My "special" place was a field of green, green grass with yellow & white flowers. I didn\'t tell him that. Instead, I asked him to describe the field of flowers. He typed back..."It was a field with green, green grass with yellow & white flowers." ",1]
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I do remember him telling me what this girl in his dream looked like. When he described her he was describing me exactly! Right down to my dimples on my face, my hair color & even how my eyes would change color! Keep in mind, I was not looking for any type of relationship. I had just told my husband that I wanted a divorce. Starting another relationship was not on my mind at all. Let alone one on the internet! I had heard horror stories about those.
So, Dave & I started chatting on ICQ. Even though the girl in his dreams had the same exact physical traits as me, I thought it was only a coincidence.
We started to talk about the dreams. I asked him what kind of dreams he had with the girl in them. He said she was always being chased by these half human troll creatures. Oh Shit! Another coincidence! I use to have these horrible nightmares of those same mean ugly trolls when I was a kid! Just another coincidence I told myself. Every kid has dreams of monsters.
He told me these trolls were always chasing me & he was always fighting them to keep them away from me. In my dreams, yes, these monster trolls were always chasing me. Then the next thing I knew they would vanish! I never saw anyone else in my dreams. I could never figure out why they vanished.
I remember him telling me that he was always trying to catch up with me. But, there were always obstacles he had to overcome in the dreams. Like a river with no way to cross. Big boulders in the path that he couldn't move, etc.
Then he told me something that changed my mind about all of this being just coincidence. He said that sometimes he would chase me through a field of flowers.
A field of flowers?! That was my "SPECIAL" place! The place you go in your mind when you close your eyes to get away from everyday things. No one knew about this place. No one! This was my place since I was a very little girl. I never told a soul about it. My "special" place was a field of green, green grass with yellow & white flowers. I didn't tell him that. Instead, I asked him to describe the field of flowers. He typed back..."It was a field with green, green grass with yellow & white flowers."
\r\n\r\nI was stunned to say the least! I fell out of chair...literally! I couldn\'t respond for a couple of minutes. He typed back, "Are you still there?" I began to tell him about my special place. How no one knew about it. \r\n\r\nThat made me a believer. A believer in what exactly? I didn\'t know. Shared dreams I guess. That started my journey. A spiritual journey you could say. We found so many coincidences about our past, that we no longer believe in coincidences. Everything happens for a reason. \r\n\r\nPart II\r\n\r\nBy this time a couple of months have passed. We are now chatting on ICQ everyday. Sometimes for 8 hours straight! Talking on the phone & using a web cam. He had one, but I didn\'t. \r\n\r\nWe knew at this point that there was something special between us. Actually, I should say, I knew. Dave knew from the very beginning. We both had deep feelings for each other. \r\n\r\nI was still living in the same house with my soon-to-be ex-husband. At this time, we are actually going through a divorce. Not something I advise to do! It was awful! I thank the stars that Dave was there with me through all of it. He really helped me to cope with it. \r\n\r\nOne day I had enough of my soon-to-be ex\'s mental abuse. I packed my things & got an apartment. The kids stayed with their dad. He\'s a great dad. I knew they would be ok with him. But, I was still feeling very guilty! \r\n\r\nOnce I was on my own, I started to experience with mediating. Such a great thing! I wish I would have found out about it before. \r\n\r\nDave & I are very much involved by now. I knew I loved him. He also felt the same. So, now we are involved in an internet relationship plus a Long Distance one at that! He lives in Sydney, Australia! ",1]
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I was stunned to say the least! I fell out of chair...literally! I couldn't respond for a couple of minutes. He typed back, "Are you still there?" I began to tell him about my special place. How no one knew about it.
That made me a believer. A believer in what exactly? I didn't know. Shared dreams I guess. That started my journey. A spiritual journey you could say. We found so many coincidences about our past, that we no longer believe in coincidences. Everything happens for a reason.
Part II
By this time a couple of months have passed. We are now chatting on ICQ everyday. Sometimes for 8 hours straight! Talking on the phone & using a web cam. He had one, but I didn't.
We knew at this point that there was something special between us. Actually, I should say, I knew. Dave knew from the very beginning. We both had deep feelings for each other.
I was still living in the same house with my soon-to-be ex-husband. At this time, we are actually going through a divorce. Not something I advise to do! It was awful! I thank the stars that Dave was there with me through all of it. He really helped me to cope with it.
One day I had enough of my soon-to-be ex's mental abuse. I packed my things & got an apartment. The kids stayed with their dad. He's a great dad. I knew they would be ok with him. But, I was still feeling very guilty!
Once I was on my own, I started to experience with mediating. Such a great thing! I wish I would have found out about it before.
Dave & I are very much involved by now. I knew I loved him. He also felt the same. So, now we are involved in an internet relationship plus a Long Distance one at that! He lives in Sydney, Australia!
We wanted to see each other but couldn\'t afford the airfare. It was very stressful! This strong need to be together. To hold each other in the flesh. \r\n\r\nOne day while mediating, I had this vision of Dave coming to see me at my apartment. But, it wasn\'t his physical body. It was his soul. I don\'t know how I knew that, I just did. It was this blue-white light with a human outline form in it. Kinda like a person\'s aura. I couldn\'t see his face, but I could feel his energy. He told me not to worry. We would be together soon. That I would be coming to Australia. Then he left. When he did it was in a bubble floating away, like in the Wizard of OZ. \r\n\r\nI didn\'t know whether I was making this up or what. I\'ve never experienced anything like this before. \r\n\r\n\r\nI wanted proof that what I had experienced was real. Out loud to the Universe. I guess. I said, if that was really Dave\'s soul visiting me & talking to me then I wanted proof. \r\n\r\nWhat kind of proof? I heard in my head. \r\n\r\n\r\nI don\'t care. How about a flower on my back porch before I leave for work. \r\n\r\n\r\nWhat kind of flower? I heard again. \r\n\r\n\r\nIt doesn\'t matter. I\'ll leave that to Dave to decide. \r\n\r\n\r\nAll afternoon I kept checking my back porch. I worked in a nightclub. So I didn\'t have to be there until 6:00 p.m. But, by the time I left for work, there was no flower. \r\n\r\nAfter closing time at the club, I was cleaning my station. I just happened to look down at the floor. There on the floor was a daisy! A yellow & white flower!! Not a real one, a silk one. Not the stem, just the flower! \r\n\r\nThis club does not sell flowers. Nor does any of the customers bring them in. Still I asked all the other waitresses, bartenders, bouncers, etc. if they saw anyone in the club with flowers. Or if anyone happened to have a flower in their hair. No, everyone said. They didn\'t see anything like that all night. ",1]
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We wanted to see each other but couldn't afford the airfare. It was very stressful! This strong need to be together. To hold each other in the flesh.
One day while mediating, I had this vision of Dave coming to see me at my apartment. But, it wasn't his physical body. It was his soul. I don't know how I knew that, I just did. It was this blue-white light with a human outline form in it. Kinda like a person's aura. I couldn't see his face, but I could feel his energy. He told me not to worry. We would be together soon. That I would be coming to Australia. Then he left. When he did it was in a bubble floating away, like in the Wizard of OZ.
I didn't know whether I was making this up or what. I've never experienced anything like this before.
I wanted proof that what I had experienced was real. Out loud to the Universe. I guess. I said, if that was really Dave's soul visiting me & talking to me then I wanted proof.
What kind of proof? I heard in my head.
I don't care. How about a flower on my back porch before I leave for work.
What kind of flower? I heard again.
It doesn't matter. I'll leave that to Dave to decide.
All afternoon I kept checking my back porch. I worked in a nightclub. So I didn't have to be there until 6:00 p.m. But, by the time I left for work, there was no flower.
After closing time at the club, I was cleaning my station. I just happened to look down at the floor. There on the floor was a daisy! A yellow & white flower!! Not a real one, a silk one. Not the stem, just the flower!
This club does not sell flowers. Nor does any of the customers bring them in. Still I asked all the other waitresses, bartenders, bouncers, etc. if they saw anyone in the club with flowers. Or if anyone happened to have a flower in their hair. No, everyone said. They didn't see anything like that all night.
\r\n\r\nWhere did the yellow & white flower come from? Coincidence? No, I don\'t think so. That was my proof! There\'s no doubt in my mind about it. \r\n\r\nI still have that flower. It\'s in a frame now. \r\n\r\n\r\nI told Dave about it. Did he have any recollection of visiting me. No, he said. But, he didn\'t think it was crazy at all. \r\n\r\nSo, what is it called? The experience I had. \r\n\r\n\r\nDuring the next month I went through hell! My car got re possessed, I lost my job, & I was being evicted. All this with in two weeks! I was almost at my lowest point. \r\n\r\nThen Dave told me that now would be the best time to come out to Australia. I wouldn\'t have to worry about making advance payments on the car, my rent, utility bills, etc. while I was in Oz. This was true. So, he borrowed the money for my airfare from a friend. \r\n\r\nTwo weeks after that I was on a plane heading to Australia! To finally meet my TwinSoul! \r\n\r\n\r\nIt is now Sept. 21, 1999. While on the plane I kept asking myself, why am I not nervous? Because I knew I was going "Home". I told Dave that once I hugged him I knew I would feel... "Whew! Finally, I\'m back home!" \r\n\r\nThat\'s exactly how it was too. He felt it also. \r\n\r\n\r\nWe\'ve been together ever since that day. \r\n\r\n\r\nNow Dave & I were married on Feb. 10, 2001 \r\n\r\n\r\nWe get along so well. It\'s unbelievable at times. We have never had a fight or argument. When there is a difference of opinion, which is very rarely, we just discuss it with the utter most respect for each others opinion. \r\n\r\nI could never imagine us ever fighting. It would actually tear me apart inside to upset or hurt him. So different from my first marriage. Where all we did was fight, sometimes physically. ",1]
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Where did the yellow & white flower come from? Coincidence? No, I don't think so. That was my proof! There's no doubt in my mind about it.
I still have that flower. It's in a frame now.
I told Dave about it. Did he have any recollection of visiting me. No, he said. But, he didn't think it was crazy at all.
So, what is it called? The experience I had.
During the next month I went through hell! My car got re possessed, I lost my job, & I was being evicted. All this with in two weeks! I was almost at my lowest point.
Then Dave told me that now would be the best time to come out to Australia. I wouldn't have to worry about making advance payments on the car, my rent, utility bills, etc. while I was in Oz. This was true. So, he borrowed the money for my airfare from a friend.
Two weeks after that I was on a plane heading to Australia! To finally meet my TwinSoul!
It is now Sept. 21, 1999. While on the plane I kept asking myself, why am I not nervous? Because I knew I was going "Home". I told Dave that once I hugged him I knew I would feel... "Whew! Finally, I'm back home!"
That's exactly how it was too. He felt it also.
We've been together ever since that day.
Now Dave & I were married on Feb. 10, 2001
We get along so well. It's unbelievable at times. We have never had a fight or argument. When there is a difference of opinion, which is very rarely, we just discuss it with the utter most respect for each others opinion.
I could never imagine us ever fighting. It would actually tear me apart inside to upset or hurt him. So different from my first marriage. Where all we did was fight, sometimes physically.
\r\n\r\nI always knew that there was something magical out there for me. I\'ve finally found it. \r\n\r\n\r\nI\'m not too good with words. Meaning, trying to describe how I feel. I\'m a Capricorn! >:) Which by the way so is Dave. But, our natal charts is another story. I had one astrologer tell me that our charts are almost identical. She asked me if it felt like we were in each other\'s head most of the time. Yes, it does. >:) \r\n\r\nThere is a magical mystical connection between us. I know we have had past lives together. One was around the Resonance era in England. We were brother & sister. This was confirmed by a psychic. Who said it was in Wales. \r\n\r\nThe other was in Ireland. I don\'t know the time period or our relationship. But, I do know that when we go to Ireland we will find that info out. I do know it has something to do with Dingle Peninsula in Kerry County. Also, with the dolphin that lives there, Fungi. \r\n\r\nI also know that we will find that "field of flowers" in Ireland. How do I know this? I can\'t explain it. I just know. \r\n\r\n\r\nAnother dream Dave use to have of us was the two of us standing on opposite cliffs looking at each other. With a vast ocean between us. Which makes sense. I was in the USA & he in Australia. \r\n\r\nThat\'s our story. I didn\'t put in all the dreams & experiences. It would end up as book length if I did. Which my friends keep telling me to write. Maybe one day. >:) \r\n\r\nThere are many things we have done in our lives that are the same or very similar. So many times our lives were parallel. \r\n\r\nWe figured out that when he stopped having his dreams of me, was exactly at the same time I got married! \r\n\r\n\r\nWe were not meant to meet until the day we finally did. I know if we met beforehand, I wouldn\'t have been ready. I know now that there were things I needed to go through & experience before I would/could fully appreciate what the two of us have between us now. ",1]
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I always knew that there was something magical out there for me. I've finally found it.
I'm not too good with words. Meaning, trying to describe how I feel. I'm a Capricorn! >:) Which by the way so is Dave. But, our natal charts is another story. I had one astrologer tell me that our charts are almost identical. She asked me if it felt like we were in each other's head most of the time. Yes, it does. >:)
There is a magical mystical connection between us. I know we have had past lives together. One was around the Resonance era in England. We were brother & sister. This was confirmed by a psychic. Who said it was in Wales.
The other was in Ireland. I don't know the time period or our relationship. But, I do know that when we go to Ireland we will find that info out. I do know it has something to do with Dingle Peninsula in Kerry County. Also, with the dolphin that lives there, Fungi.
I also know that we will find that "field of flowers" in Ireland. How do I know this? I can't explain it. I just know.
Another dream Dave use to have of us was the two of us standing on opposite cliffs looking at each other. With a vast ocean between us. Which makes sense. I was in the USA & he in Australia.
That's our story. I didn't put in all the dreams & experiences. It would end up as book length if I did. Which my friends keep telling me to write. Maybe one day. >:)
There are many things we have done in our lives that are the same or very similar. So many times our lives were parallel.
We figured out that when he stopped having his dreams of me, was exactly at the same time I got married!
We were not meant to meet until the day we finally did. I know if we met beforehand, I wouldn't have been ready. I know now that there were things I needed to go through & experience before I would/could fully appreciate what the two of us have between us now.
\r\n\r\nLooking back now, I know that period in the beginning where I was a couch potato. Was actually "soul searching". Meaning, my soul was actually out there searching for my other half. \r\n\r\nI hope I have made this come across as magical & special as it really it is. Because it really happened like this. \r\n\r\n\r\nI am looking forward to growing old with Dave & learning all I can with him. Something that never seemed appealing with anyone else till now. In fact, growing old use to scare the hell out of me. It doesn\'t anymore. \r\n\r\nAll of this has led me to my path of Spirituality. Learning all I can about metaphysical & mystic things. Which I now know is the path I\'m to lead in this life. \r\n\r\nWhat a magical thing to do alongside your TwinSoul! \r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n",0]
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Looking back now, I know that period in the beginning where I was a couch potato. Was actually "soul searching". Meaning, my soul was actually out there searching for my other half.
I hope I have made this come across as magical & special as it really it is. Because it really happened like this.
I am looking forward to growing old with Dave & learning all I can with him. Something that never seemed appealing with anyone else till now. In fact, growing old use to scare the hell out of me. It doesn't anymore.
All of this has led me to my path of Spirituality. Learning all I can about metaphysical & mystic things. Which I now know is the path I'm to lead in this life.
What a magical thing to do alongside your TwinSoul!
Throughout our 13 years together I always felt empty. I couldn't understand what was wrong with me. Why couldn't I truly love this man? I went thru the depressionn stage & had bouts of anxiety.
The last year of our marriage, I was more or less a couch potatoe. I had no energy, no desire to do anything. I refused to share the bed with my husband. Yet, this wasn't depression. Which was even more confusing! My husband asked what was wrong with me. He noticed that it was not depression either. The only thing I could tell him was that I felt SO empty inside. So lonely. I told him my soul was searching for something. Yet, for what I had no earthly idea!
This feeling continued for about another month. Then I decided, "This is enough!" I still had no idea what was wrong with me. The doctors had no idea either. So, one morning I got up off the couch & told myself, "No more." If this was what life was suppose to be like, then so be it. I was going to live each day as best as I could. Yet, deep down I felt like Someone was looking for me & that I needed to find this person.
\r\n\r\n"Every night from the age of 11 till a few years ago, I would have these dreams. Very different dreams, each of them. I could control them, to an extent. \r\n\r\nThe one thing that never changed in these dreams was the face of a girl. (Later a woman, but the same face.) She grew up with me. (Or did I grow up with her.) She became a part of me. I got so that I could see her face while I was awake. \r\n\r\nThen, suddenly, the dreams stopped. Is she dead? Does she not love me anymore? Or am I to meet her in the flesh at last? I pray for the last, though I\'m begining to lose my faith. Her face is fadeing in my mind. I can\'t remember the details much anymore. \r\n\r\nAre you out there? \r\n\r\n\r\nDo you believe in Soul Mates? Can this person, who\'s name I never discovered, be my soul mate? Are we ever destined to meet?" \r\n\r\nThis was interesting to me. I have never heard of anyone doing this. Can someone actually dream of a person they have never met? Night after night?! How bizarre! Yet, so very interesting. I wanted to know more about this kind of dreaming. So, I e-mailed this guy. Keep in mind, this was the first time I have ever responded to a message on a board. I didn\'t even post my reply to the board, just responded directly to his e-mail address. \r\n\r\nHe wrote back answering all my questions. I can\'t remember what my questions were but I know I became more intriqued. He gave me his ICQ # so we could chat. \r\n\r\n",1]
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That night was Dec. 23, 1998. I stayed up late that night browsing the internet. Looking at different message boards on ICQ. Just reading, having no intentions of replying to any of them. One link led to another, etc. Until I saw one that caught my interest. The title was "Soul Mates in Your Dreams". It was by a guy named David Moss. It read:
"Every night from the age of 11 till a few years ago, I would have these dreams. Very different dreams, each of them. I could control them, to an extent.
The one thing that never changed in these dreams was the face of a girl. (Later a woman, but the same face.) She grew up with me. (Or did I grow up with her.) She became a part of me. I got so that I could see her face while I was awake.
Then, suddenly, the dreams stopped. Is she dead? Does she not love me anymore? Or am I to meet her in the flesh at last? I pray for the last, though I'm begining to lose my faith. Her face is fadeing in my mind. I can't remember the details much anymore.
Are you out there?
Do you believe in Soul Mates? Can this person, who's name I never discovered, be my soul mate? Are we ever destined to meet?"
This was interesting to me. I have never heard of anyone doing this. Can someone actually dream of a person they have never met? Night after night?! How bizarre! Yet, so very interesting. I wanted to know more about this kind of dreaming. So, I e-mailed this guy. Keep in mind, this was the first time I have ever responded to a message on a board. I didn't even post my reply to the board, just responded directly to his e-mail address.
He wrote back answering all my questions. I can't remember what my questions were but I know I became more intriqued. He gave me his ICQ # so we could chat.
\r\n\r\nSo, Dave & I started chatting on ICQ. Even though the girl in his dreams had the same exact physical traits as me, I thought it was only a coincidence. \r\n\r\nWe started to talk about the dreams. I asked him what kind of dreams he had with the girl in them. He said she was always being chased by these half human troll creatures. Oh Shit! Another coincidence! I use to have these horrible nightmares of those same mean ugly trolls when I was a kid! Just another coincidence I told myself. Every kid has dreams of monsters. \r\n\r\nHe told me these trolls were always chasing me & he was always fighting them to keep them away from me. In my dreams, yes, these monster trolls were always chasing me. Then the next thing I knew they would vanish! I never saw anyone else in my dreams. I could never figure out why they vanished. \r\n\r\nI remember him telling me that he was always trying to catch up with me. But, there were always obstacles he had to overcome in the dreams. Like a river with no way to cross. Big boulders in the path that he couldn\'t move, etc. \r\n\r\nThen he told me something that changed my mind about all of this being just coincidence. He said that sometimes he would chase me through a field of flowers. \r\n\r\nA field of flowers?! That was my "SPECIAL" place! The place you go in your mind when you close your eyes to get away from everyday things. No one knew about this place. No one! This was my place since I was a very little girl. I never told a soul about it. My "special" place was a field of green, green grass with yellow & white flowers. I didn\'t tell him that. Instead, I asked him to describe the field of flowers. He typed back..."It was a field with green, green grass with yellow & white flowers." ",1]
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I do remember him telling me what this girl in his dream looked like. When he described her he was describing me exactly! Right down to my dimples on my face, my hair color & even how my eyes would change color! Keep in mind, I was not looking for any type of relationship. I had just told my husband that I wanted a divorce. Starting another relationship was not on my mind at all. Let alone one on the internet! I had heard horror stories about those.
So, Dave & I started chatting on ICQ. Even though the girl in his dreams had the same exact physical traits as me, I thought it was only a coincidence.
We started to talk about the dreams. I asked him what kind of dreams he had with the girl in them. He said she was always being chased by these half human troll creatures. Oh Shit! Another coincidence! I use to have these horrible nightmares of those same mean ugly trolls when I was a kid! Just another coincidence I told myself. Every kid has dreams of monsters.
He told me these trolls were always chasing me & he was always fighting them to keep them away from me. In my dreams, yes, these monster trolls were always chasing me. Then the next thing I knew they would vanish! I never saw anyone else in my dreams. I could never figure out why they vanished.
I remember him telling me that he was always trying to catch up with me. But, there were always obstacles he had to overcome in the dreams. Like a river with no way to cross. Big boulders in the path that he couldn't move, etc.
Then he told me something that changed my mind about all of this being just coincidence. He said that sometimes he would chase me through a field of flowers.
A field of flowers?! That was my "SPECIAL" place! The place you go in your mind when you close your eyes to get away from everyday things. No one knew about this place. No one! This was my place since I was a very little girl. I never told a soul about it. My "special" place was a field of green, green grass with yellow & white flowers. I didn't tell him that. Instead, I asked him to describe the field of flowers. He typed back..."It was a field with green, green grass with yellow & white flowers."
\r\n\r\nI was stunned to say the least! I fell out of chair...literally! I couldn\'t respond for a couple of minutes. He typed back, "Are you still there?" I began to tell him about my special place. How no one knew about it. \r\n\r\nThat made me a believer. A believer in what exactly? I didn\'t know. Shared dreams I guess. That started my journey. A spiritual journey you could say. We found so many coincidences about our past, that we no longer believe in coincidences. Everything happens for a reason. \r\n\r\nPart II\r\n\r\nBy this time a couple of months have passed. We are now chatting on ICQ everyday. Sometimes for 8 hours straight! Talking on the phone & using a web cam. He had one, but I didn\'t. \r\n\r\nWe knew at this point that there was something special between us. Actually, I should say, I knew. Dave knew from the very beginning. We both had deep feelings for each other. \r\n\r\nI was still living in the same house with my soon-to-be ex-husband. At this time, we are actually going through a divorce. Not something I advise to do! It was awful! I thank the stars that Dave was there with me through all of it. He really helped me to cope with it. \r\n\r\nOne day I had enough of my soon-to-be ex\'s mental abuse. I packed my things & got an apartment. The kids stayed with their dad. He\'s a great dad. I knew they would be ok with him. But, I was still feeling very guilty! \r\n\r\nOnce I was on my own, I started to experience with mediating. Such a great thing! I wish I would have found out about it before. \r\n\r\nDave & I are very much involved by now. I knew I loved him. He also felt the same. So, now we are involved in an internet relationship plus a Long Distance one at that! He lives in Sydney, Australia! ",1]
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I was stunned to say the least! I fell out of chair...literally! I couldn't respond for a couple of minutes. He typed back, "Are you still there?" I began to tell him about my special place. How no one knew about it.
That made me a believer. A believer in what exactly? I didn't know. Shared dreams I guess. That started my journey. A spiritual journey you could say. We found so many coincidences about our past, that we no longer believe in coincidences. Everything happens for a reason.
Part II
By this time a couple of months have passed. We are now chatting on ICQ everyday. Sometimes for 8 hours straight! Talking on the phone & using a web cam. He had one, but I didn't.
We knew at this point that there was something special between us. Actually, I should say, I knew. Dave knew from the very beginning. We both had deep feelings for each other.
I was still living in the same house with my soon-to-be ex-husband. At this time, we are actually going through a divorce. Not something I advise to do! It was awful! I thank the stars that Dave was there with me through all of it. He really helped me to cope with it.
One day I had enough of my soon-to-be ex's mental abuse. I packed my things & got an apartment. The kids stayed with their dad. He's a great dad. I knew they would be ok with him. But, I was still feeling very guilty!
Once I was on my own, I started to experience with mediating. Such a great thing! I wish I would have found out about it before.
Dave & I are very much involved by now. I knew I loved him. He also felt the same. So, now we are involved in an internet relationship plus a Long Distance one at that! He lives in Sydney, Australia!
We wanted to see each other but couldn\'t afford the airfare. It was very stressful! This strong need to be together. To hold each other in the flesh. \r\n\r\nOne day while mediating, I had this vision of Dave coming to see me at my apartment. But, it wasn\'t his physical body. It was his soul. I don\'t know how I knew that, I just did. It was this blue-white light with a human outline form in it. Kinda like a person\'s aura. I couldn\'t see his face, but I could feel his energy. He told me not to worry. We would be together soon. That I would be coming to Australia. Then he left. When he did it was in a bubble floating away, like in the Wizard of OZ. \r\n\r\nI didn\'t know whether I was making this up or what. I\'ve never experienced anything like this before. \r\n\r\n\r\nI wanted proof that what I had experienced was real. Out loud to the Universe. I guess. I said, if that was really Dave\'s soul visiting me & talking to me then I wanted proof. \r\n\r\nWhat kind of proof? I heard in my head. \r\n\r\n\r\nI don\'t care. How about a flower on my back porch before I leave for work. \r\n\r\n\r\nWhat kind of flower? I heard again. \r\n\r\n\r\nIt doesn\'t matter. I\'ll leave that to Dave to decide. \r\n\r\n\r\nAll afternoon I kept checking my back porch. I worked in a nightclub. So I didn\'t have to be there until 6:00 p.m. But, by the time I left for work, there was no flower. \r\n\r\nAfter closing time at the club, I was cleaning my station. I just happened to look down at the floor. There on the floor was a daisy! A yellow & white flower!! Not a real one, a silk one. Not the stem, just the flower! \r\n\r\nThis club does not sell flowers. Nor does any of the customers bring them in. Still I asked all the other waitresses, bartenders, bouncers, etc. if they saw anyone in the club with flowers. Or if anyone happened to have a flower in their hair. No, everyone said. They didn\'t see anything like that all night. ",1]
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We wanted to see each other but couldn't afford the airfare. It was very stressful! This strong need to be together. To hold each other in the flesh.
One day while mediating, I had this vision of Dave coming to see me at my apartment. But, it wasn't his physical body. It was his soul. I don't know how I knew that, I just did. It was this blue-white light with a human outline form in it. Kinda like a person's aura. I couldn't see his face, but I could feel his energy. He told me not to worry. We would be together soon. That I would be coming to Australia. Then he left. When he did it was in a bubble floating away, like in the Wizard of OZ.
I didn't know whether I was making this up or what. I've never experienced anything like this before.
I wanted proof that what I had experienced was real. Out loud to the Universe. I guess. I said, if that was really Dave's soul visiting me & talking to me then I wanted proof.
What kind of proof? I heard in my head.
I don't care. How about a flower on my back porch before I leave for work.
What kind of flower? I heard again.
It doesn't matter. I'll leave that to Dave to decide.
All afternoon I kept checking my back porch. I worked in a nightclub. So I didn't have to be there until 6:00 p.m. But, by the time I left for work, there was no flower.
After closing time at the club, I was cleaning my station. I just happened to look down at the floor. There on the floor was a daisy! A yellow & white flower!! Not a real one, a silk one. Not the stem, just the flower!
This club does not sell flowers. Nor does any of the customers bring them in. Still I asked all the other waitresses, bartenders, bouncers, etc. if they saw anyone in the club with flowers. Or if anyone happened to have a flower in their hair. No, everyone said. They didn't see anything like that all night.
\r\n\r\nWhere did the yellow & white flower come from? Coincidence? No, I don\'t think so. That was my proof! There\'s no doubt in my mind about it. \r\n\r\nI still have that flower. It\'s in a frame now. \r\n\r\n\r\nI told Dave about it. Did he have any recollection of visiting me. No, he said. But, he didn\'t think it was crazy at all. \r\n\r\nSo, what is it called? The experience I had. \r\n\r\n\r\nDuring the next month I went through hell! My car got re possessed, I lost my job, & I was being evicted. All this with in two weeks! I was almost at my lowest point. \r\n\r\nThen Dave told me that now would be the best time to come out to Australia. I wouldn\'t have to worry about making advance payments on the car, my rent, utility bills, etc. while I was in Oz. This was true. So, he borrowed the money for my airfare from a friend. \r\n\r\nTwo weeks after that I was on a plane heading to Australia! To finally meet my TwinSoul! \r\n\r\n\r\nIt is now Sept. 21, 1999. While on the plane I kept asking myself, why am I not nervous? Because I knew I was going "Home". I told Dave that once I hugged him I knew I would feel... "Whew! Finally, I\'m back home!" \r\n\r\nThat\'s exactly how it was too. He felt it also. \r\n\r\n\r\nWe\'ve been together ever since that day. \r\n\r\n\r\nNow Dave & I were married on Feb. 10, 2001 \r\n\r\n\r\nWe get along so well. It\'s unbelievable at times. We have never had a fight or argument. When there is a difference of opinion, which is very rarely, we just discuss it with the utter most respect for each others opinion. \r\n\r\nI could never imagine us ever fighting. It would actually tear me apart inside to upset or hurt him. So different from my first marriage. Where all we did was fight, sometimes physically. ",1]
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Where did the yellow & white flower come from? Coincidence? No, I don't think so. That was my proof! There's no doubt in my mind about it.
I still have that flower. It's in a frame now.
I told Dave about it. Did he have any recollection of visiting me. No, he said. But, he didn't think it was crazy at all.
So, what is it called? The experience I had.
During the next month I went through hell! My car got re possessed, I lost my job, & I was being evicted. All this with in two weeks! I was almost at my lowest point.
Then Dave told me that now would be the best time to come out to Australia. I wouldn't have to worry about making advance payments on the car, my rent, utility bills, etc. while I was in Oz. This was true. So, he borrowed the money for my airfare from a friend.
Two weeks after that I was on a plane heading to Australia! To finally meet my TwinSoul!
It is now Sept. 21, 1999. While on the plane I kept asking myself, why am I not nervous? Because I knew I was going "Home". I told Dave that once I hugged him I knew I would feel... "Whew! Finally, I'm back home!"
That's exactly how it was too. He felt it also.
We've been together ever since that day.
Now Dave & I were married on Feb. 10, 2001
We get along so well. It's unbelievable at times. We have never had a fight or argument. When there is a difference of opinion, which is very rarely, we just discuss it with the utter most respect for each others opinion.
I could never imagine us ever fighting. It would actually tear me apart inside to upset or hurt him. So different from my first marriage. Where all we did was fight, sometimes physically.
\r\n\r\nI always knew that there was something magical out there for me. I\'ve finally found it. \r\n\r\n\r\nI\'m not too good with words. Meaning, trying to describe how I feel. I\'m a Capricorn! >:) Which by the way so is Dave. But, our natal charts is another story. I had one astrologer tell me that our charts are almost identical. She asked me if it felt like we were in each other\'s head most of the time. Yes, it does. >:) \r\n\r\nThere is a magical mystical connection between us. I know we have had past lives together. One was around the Resonance era in England. We were brother & sister. This was confirmed by a psychic. Who said it was in Wales. \r\n\r\nThe other was in Ireland. I don\'t know the time period or our relationship. But, I do know that when we go to Ireland we will find that info out. I do know it has something to do with Dingle Peninsula in Kerry County. Also, with the dolphin that lives there, Fungi. \r\n\r\nI also know that we will find that "field of flowers" in Ireland. How do I know this? I can\'t explain it. I just know. \r\n\r\n\r\nAnother dream Dave use to have of us was the two of us standing on opposite cliffs looking at each other. With a vast ocean between us. Which makes sense. I was in the USA & he in Australia. \r\n\r\nThat\'s our story. I didn\'t put in all the dreams & experiences. It would end up as book length if I did. Which my friends keep telling me to write. Maybe one day. >:) \r\n\r\nThere are many things we have done in our lives that are the same or very similar. So many times our lives were parallel. \r\n\r\nWe figured out that when he stopped having his dreams of me, was exactly at the same time I got married! \r\n\r\n\r\nWe were not meant to meet until the day we finally did. I know if we met beforehand, I wouldn\'t have been ready. I know now that there were things I needed to go through & experience before I would/could fully appreciate what the two of us have between us now. ",1]
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I always knew that there was something magical out there for me. I've finally found it.
I'm not too good with words. Meaning, trying to describe how I feel. I'm a Capricorn! >:) Which by the way so is Dave. But, our natal charts is another story. I had one astrologer tell me that our charts are almost identical. She asked me if it felt like we were in each other's head most of the time. Yes, it does. >:)
There is a magical mystical connection between us. I know we have had past lives together. One was around the Resonance era in England. We were brother & sister. This was confirmed by a psychic. Who said it was in Wales.
The other was in Ireland. I don't know the time period or our relationship. But, I do know that when we go to Ireland we will find that info out. I do know it has something to do with Dingle Peninsula in Kerry County. Also, with the dolphin that lives there, Fungi.
I also know that we will find that "field of flowers" in Ireland. How do I know this? I can't explain it. I just know.
Another dream Dave use to have of us was the two of us standing on opposite cliffs looking at each other. With a vast ocean between us. Which makes sense. I was in the USA & he in Australia.
That's our story. I didn't put in all the dreams & experiences. It would end up as book length if I did. Which my friends keep telling me to write. Maybe one day. >:)
There are many things we have done in our lives that are the same or very similar. So many times our lives were parallel.
We figured out that when he stopped having his dreams of me, was exactly at the same time I got married!
We were not meant to meet until the day we finally did. I know if we met beforehand, I wouldn't have been ready. I know now that there were things I needed to go through & experience before I would/could fully appreciate what the two of us have between us now.
\r\n\r\nLooking back now, I know that period in the beginning where I was a couch potato. Was actually "soul searching". Meaning, my soul was actually out there searching for my other half. \r\n\r\nI hope I have made this come across as magical & special as it really it is. Because it really happened like this. \r\n\r\n\r\nI am looking forward to growing old with Dave & learning all I can with him. Something that never seemed appealing with anyone else till now. In fact, growing old use to scare the hell out of me. It doesn\'t anymore. \r\n\r\nAll of this has led me to my path of Spirituality. Learning all I can about metaphysical & mystic things. Which I now know is the path I\'m to lead in this life. \r\n\r\nWhat a magical thing to do alongside your TwinSoul! \r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n\r\n",0]
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Looking back now, I know that period in the beginning where I was a couch potato. Was actually "soul searching". Meaning, my soul was actually out there searching for my other half.
I hope I have made this come across as magical & special as it really it is. Because it really happened like this.
I am looking forward to growing old with Dave & learning all I can with him. Something that never seemed appealing with anyone else till now. In fact, growing old use to scare the hell out of me. It doesn't anymore.
All of this has led me to my path of Spirituality. Learning all I can about metaphysical & mystic things. Which I now know is the path I'm to lead in this life.
What a magical thing to do alongside your TwinSoul!
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