You actually touched her?! You really grossed me out totally!!!

Probably the last time i ever gonna access this blog.


I can accept losing,
I can accept insults,
But to lose to fugly is a fucking insult!



Images of them flirting via text msgs really still gross me out...

too hard.

I am sorry.

I am closing down this blog.

When your heart
Has been broken
And stepped on
It leaves you hesitant
Reluctant to try
To give in once more
To open up To emotion
To dip your toe
Into the mire
Into the ocean
Of desire
To dip your toe
Into the ocean
Of unknown emotion
If you don’t
Enter the water
You wont get wet
There is no danger
Of being dragged under
Should you take a chance?
On love again
Throw caution to the wind
Open yourself up to the pain
Or the pleasure
Feel the love
Washing over you
Immersing yourself
The waves washing over you
It may drown you
If you do
If you resist the temptation
You will be safe
Unharmed in your segregation
Yet a single moment spent
In the refreshing waters
Stood on the ocean floor
Is worth a lifetime
Spent safely on the shore

Really miss this place

I really really miss this place...was there today.Memories in my heart, forever.

Most of the below describes how i feel...

Quote
It takes a minute to have a crush on someone,
An hour to like someone, And a day to love someone,
but it could takes a long time to forget someone.

It’s so hard to say I love you and not draw back in tears
It’s so hard to know that you are not there to help me face my fears
It’s so hard to know that the phone is at reach but I cannot hear your voice
It’s so hard to see you laughing when I’m crying deep inside
It’s so hard to remember those feelings we had and now I have to make them hide
It’s so hard to go to sleep at night when you are not by my side
It’s so hard to acknowledge that you have fallen in love with someone new
It’s so hard to hold back tears when I hear our favourite songs
It’s so hard to understand why you choose to abandon me just like that

Thanks for the poem...but no please do not fall in love with me. It hurts to know...,my chest is in pain now.....

A Dearest girl I knew, sat glowing upon my lap,

surely brought me a tear, one I didn’t expect.

What would you like for your birthday my Dear?

I would like it if the Angels & God could hear.



But they can hear you my Dear, yes surely its true.

Well Gor, they never hear what I ask them to do…

On radio & TV, they’re showing us all,

Saying people with no food or even rainfall.



I ask God & Angels to make things well,

But on TV, there’s no change you can tell.

I don’t think that God ever hears me, not at all…

He must be too busy to hear a little girl very small?



Maybe that’s it! said me… quite choked sitting there.

Tears in her eyes she asked “Is God busy some where?”

You see my tummy’s full, my home warm as a rug.

Tearful me then nodded, giving her an affectionate hug.



Well my dear, I’ll call in on God and will be saying:

They should listen to you among all people praying…

I’ll make sure others too & all angels hear,

to the sweetest kind words, from your heart my Dear.



I love you Dear, so very much.

Heartening...

A Heartening article written and published on of all days my birthday in ST, http://www.straitstimes.com/Free/Story/STIStory_177789.html.

...Just as friendship between platonic friends can outlive itself, so, too, can long-term romantic love.

I used to think that no matter how much a person disappoints you, it can be overcome if you just focus on the love and relationship.

But I've found that love can and does die, although die may be too melodramatic a word. It's more a case of love fading, like the ink from the pages of an old diary, or the image in an aged photo.

It disappears for a variety of reasons.

The cause can be sensational such as when a partner does something that hurts and deceives you.

More often though, the reasons are prosaic, like over-familiarity, boredom and benign neglect. And with the first-stage lust long gone, the love is quickly spent and you just aren't into each other anymore.

Still, to have loved and lost - lost in the sense of losing that love you once held so dear in your heart, and lost as in losing your loved one to someone or something else - must surely be better than to have never loved at all.

...

I have always been afraid of falling in love. Have always been afraid of getting into relationships to the extend i avoid them cos i thought once you fall in love, ultimately you will end up hurting each other.

Because of you, you make me wanted to want to fall in love with you. You made me believe that its possible for a man to love a woman all his life.

2 pieces of charcoal...

Until then, i still have 2 pieces of charcoal.

Holding hands

It’s a hand that full of strength, to keep her company.
It’s a hand that full of caring, giving her the courage to walk further..

When you think everything is someone else´s fault, you will suffer a lot. When you realize that everything springs only from yourself, you will learn both peace and joy. Pride leads to violence and evil. The truly good gaze upon everything with love and understanding. ~dalai lama

Take care

The photos that lie in my worn out drawer
show days of laughter that I'm grateful of.
They're times that I'd never take away,
since each step we made added to the memorable scenery.
Do you ever look at them?
I wonder if your appearance has changed.
Do you ever think about me?
I wonder about these days but I try to keep them to myself.
Whenever we're purposely brought together, you always turn away.
It'd be a lot better if we could go back to the past.

*With this last bit of hope, I'll fold my thoughts of you.
I'll move away so you can go without guilty feelings.
My love was dull and not enough,
so find someone who can fill you up.
It's okay to forget about me.

Sometimes I might come to mind,
even when some one is entering you heart.
You may miss the past at times,
but if it's possible, don't feel sorry for me.
Even if time was turned back and we never met,
I'd still love you oh~

Don't regret anything.
Always remember we were once cherished each other.
When we meet again,
I pray that you'll be with someone special.
I hope we can smile comfortably
as we pass each other.
Let's meet on a day like that.
Until then, take care.